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11/13/2006 就这样 就这样，2006年11月12日即将过去。胃痛也好了些，可以静下来想想了。
岁月如斯，飘逝殆尽。
还能说些什么呢？
唯一可以说的是，这是有生以来最平白的一次纪念日。没有鲜花，没有掌声，没有送别，没有寄语，只是静静地待在一个地方，一待就是一整天。用室友的话说，“最窝囊的一天”。这是怎样的境地？谁又能体会的到？
其中酸楚，特别艰辛。alone & lonely
 斜倚在床头，听着最爱的kiss the rain，开大音量，静谧其中，想着过去的回忆。
小的时候，每年生日的时候妈妈会在电饭煲里放上两个鸡蛋，在吃饭的时候盛给我，算是又大了一岁。当时总是心怀怨念，羡慕邻家的大蛋糕和小蜡烛。不得不说，这种埋怨伴随我直到成年。回想起来，真的很自私，不懂得珍惜。平平淡淡才是真，又一次被印证。离开家的日子，没人歌唱，无人理会，只是独自沉思。
想念妈妈，想念妈妈煮的鸡蛋－－这才是最真的祝福。
如果可能，我想马上飞回家，感受妈妈的祝福。
可我不能，我不可以让妈妈担心。
当一个人的情感寄托出现真空的时候，一切美好都显得不自然。
就像某人说的，“如果她已……，我觉得你这样做就有点傻”。
真是可笑，突然觉得自己。
当你在乎了一些本不该在乎的东西，结局会怎样？ 11/11/2006 11.11 今天很平常，普通的周末而已。
今天很特殊，据说是光棍节的缘故。
一直很迷茫，这世上怎么会有光棍节出现？搜索了好久，发现了好几条由来，看来Google对光棍节的诞生也没有信心。
11.11，读起来琅琅上口。每年里这样的日子并不多，1.1，1.11，2.2，2.22，3.3，4.4，5.5，… ，直到11.11。莫非是上天早已安排的？
中国人向来是喜好节日的，这一天也不例外。青年男女，难免思春。狂欢，交友，派队，应接不暇。商家也充分利用了这一难得的商机，大肆促销。就连学校也举行了十大高校狂欢会，这不是挖我们的墙脚吗？真是处心积虑。
算了，就这样吧，让它自己逝去。
关注本身就意味着依恋。 11/5/2006 When Birthday Is ComingWhen birthday is coming, I'm in hot water. When birthday is coming, what shall I do? Baby, please tell me. Because I don't know what to do. A week later, there will be my birthday- the day when I was given a birth. At first, I must say "thank you" to Mum. Without her, I would have no chance to see this beautiful world. Then I have to complain that time flies too fast. Unconsciously, a year has past. I cannot help amending the column of Age in variable documents. There will be one more man who is 21 years old in Windows Live Spaces soon. Actually, I don't hope it occurs. It's too surprising. I have no longing of this coming birthday. On the contrary, I get into meditation. Even I have been dreaming about something that could keep the birthday from coming. But I know it's impossible. What I can only do is facing it. No escape, no complaint. Just wait for its coming. When birthday is coming, I have several choices. I can give air to my birthday date. On that day I will receive some presents. I will call some friends to my party, saying" It's my birthday, let's celebrate!" Then spend an exciting night together with them. I can also choose to stay alone, while only food and beer accompany me. In addition, I can pretend not to remember that day. Letting it go by sounds nice. Whichever choice it is, may every day look like before. Even if change is a must, gradually please. Right now I was trying to count people who know my birthday. Five, ten or even more. It makes no sense. The crucial problem is that there is someone in your mind with whom you wish to share the special night annually, whereas she never yearns that. What a pity! Today it's much colder than last week, as a result of cold wave. The frozen heart would be more painful with the lower temperature. Leaves fluttering to the ground bring to mind a classic movie, Gone with the Wind. Nevertheless, it's predeterminate that you would never get this sad but beautiful love. So bless myself! That's the best choice. And I am still singing" It was songs of love that I would sing to them And I'd memorise each word Those old melodies still sound so good to me As they melt the years away Every shalala every wo'wo still shines…"  11/2/2006 About LoveHe that falls in love with himself will have no rivals.
The supreme happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved. Love is like a saving box, it needs to be filled constantly to last forever. |
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